Back to Life, Back to Reality
The sister, brother in law and friends are gone, the interns are gone, a few other good friends are gone, and my roommate is coming back from the Middle East. Seems like I can move on with life on a sort of routine. I have been at work for 13 hours today. Exciting.
Seriously though, I feel like I'm back in focus, and there's plenty of work to do. Photo editing, office stuff, design projects, office stuff, clean the apartment, office stuff, It's 9:30 pm and I'm still in the office. I haven't had a day like this since long ago. Kinda feels good, but the caffeine kick earlier had me wiggin' out.
Yerevan is a bit more relaxing these days. All of the sudden once my group left, there was an eeeerie quiet. There's still tourists, but not so much hustle and bustle, not so much nightlife tashkhala. It's kinda nice. When my sister left, I had a hard time saying bye because it was the first time in a while that I got to be with her without outside stress... I remembered what it's like to have a real sister (I haven't lived near her in YEARS). We had an awesome time and it was nice to have that here. I remembered what it was like enjoying the company of family. The possibility of bringing her and her husband here, along with possibly others... it really is hard to not get my hopes up. It would be amazing to have family around. Well, time will tell.
I do have to say that regardless of the "things lacking" in Armenia, I still walk down the streets with an overwhelming sense of contentment in life. People are meant to be in certain places in the world and when they are not, they seem strange, out of place, conflicted with their surroundings. This was my problem in the US. When people ask me why I came here (diasporans), it's hard to convey that, but that is a major part of the reason. I may go crazy in Yerevan sometimes, I might struggle with the behaviors and social standards around me, but there is no perfect place in the world, just ones we relate to. For me, this is right. The details of reality are just life to be confronted anywhere in the world. People say after a few months, everyone deals with regret and depression over moving here. I think I already experienced that the first time around. I'm fine just where I am.
I do confess that my English has become a joke. Thank God I can still spit out a blog here and there. More photos coming soon... goooood stuff!
Seriously though, I feel like I'm back in focus, and there's plenty of work to do. Photo editing, office stuff, design projects, office stuff, clean the apartment, office stuff, It's 9:30 pm and I'm still in the office. I haven't had a day like this since long ago. Kinda feels good, but the caffeine kick earlier had me wiggin' out.
Yerevan is a bit more relaxing these days. All of the sudden once my group left, there was an eeeerie quiet. There's still tourists, but not so much hustle and bustle, not so much nightlife tashkhala. It's kinda nice. When my sister left, I had a hard time saying bye because it was the first time in a while that I got to be with her without outside stress... I remembered what it's like to have a real sister (I haven't lived near her in YEARS). We had an awesome time and it was nice to have that here. I remembered what it was like enjoying the company of family. The possibility of bringing her and her husband here, along with possibly others... it really is hard to not get my hopes up. It would be amazing to have family around. Well, time will tell.
I do have to say that regardless of the "things lacking" in Armenia, I still walk down the streets with an overwhelming sense of contentment in life. People are meant to be in certain places in the world and when they are not, they seem strange, out of place, conflicted with their surroundings. This was my problem in the US. When people ask me why I came here (diasporans), it's hard to convey that, but that is a major part of the reason. I may go crazy in Yerevan sometimes, I might struggle with the behaviors and social standards around me, but there is no perfect place in the world, just ones we relate to. For me, this is right. The details of reality are just life to be confronted anywhere in the world. People say after a few months, everyone deals with regret and depression over moving here. I think I already experienced that the first time around. I'm fine just where I am.
I do confess that my English has become a joke. Thank God I can still spit out a blog here and there. More photos coming soon... goooood stuff!
posted by Arsineh at 9:04 PM
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